Scorpio season / Samhain reflections 🧙‍♀️🍃✨

Reflections after revisiting the nature spot I visited daily last year 🍃

Reflecting on the past 12 months & WOW what a year 🥹

I must be coming out the end of my Saturn return as I truly feel I’ve turned into a woman from a girl. Like I finally know who I am & my place & purpose. I have had some of the most amazing experiences this year & some of the most horrific things happen to me (living with 2  Malignment Narcisists in a row). The things that could have broke me actually made me. So much more stronger & rooted in my authenticity.

I can’t believe how much I’ve grown in a year. This time last year I was still so scared to speak my truth for fear of upsetting & being liked less as a result. Now my throat chakra is wide open baby & ain’t nothing but the truth will be spoken (with kindness and compassion of course, most of the time😉).

I gave up my celibacy & things ended with the guy shortly after & I didn’t regret it or feel shame. Just gratitude for the lessons. It was also a great experience regardless of what happened in the end, I was able to safely explore my bdsm desires & better know what I am into. Plus I think I needed the ego identity/superiority taken away thinking being celibate made me more worthy.. (it definitely turned into a badge of honour!)

I opened my heart & faced all my deepest darkest voids in relation to my anxiously attached dating style. I opened my heart & didn’t get it reciprocated. & it didn’t close me. But instead made me wanna open it even more, now I know I’m capable of and am worthy of it. But, (even though I’m back on Hinge😋 I went to delete it & they offered to reset my profile, they got me & im so grateful they did! If you’re not getting anywhere on Hinge lil tip for you) there is no urgency to find someone.

I have come to realise I think partnership is a part of life. A lot of the spiritual stuff tells you to find everything in yourself which is true to extents but you can fully love yourself & feel the love from yourself & non romantic relationships and still want a romantic partner. (I also believe we are social beings and spending real life human time with people is important.) I believe we are supposed to be in partnership. I don’t think we are supposed to be living the separated lives a lot of western people are now which is why we have such a struggle balancing the masculine & feminine energy’s. I could write a whole other blog post on this so I will leave it there.

I have dedicated the past year to my yoga teaching, constantly learning and evolving, and I am still learning (even more now!). I am able to earn a full time wage doing something I truly love & in such a short space of time, dedication & devotion is all it took. ❤️ (don’t get me wrong the past couple years since I took the plunge have been a struggle at times financially, but we are out of it and reaping the rewards & doing the inner work to feel comfortable with the safety & security money brings.)

I am so so grateful for all of the wild experiences from the year, the “highs” & the “lows”. To truly feel all of the depths is what it is to be alive & walk the feminine path. To those that did the worst & tried to “break” me - you actually made me!! Showing me I am able to alchemise and transmute absolutely everything to work in my favour. Giving me more strength, more power, more wisdom to share with others. So guess what, I don’t hate you, I actually LOVE you!!! Thankyou for helping me unleash this version of me I never knew existed.

Reflecting on “There is no evil just an absence of light”.. If that’s the case we best keep spreading our light to make up for it 💡🤍✨

I’m sorry

Please forgive me

Thankyou

I love you

Ho’oponopono 😘

Ready to utilise witch Szn & create even more magic for the years ahead

& so it is 🪄

Human reading this, I love you, thankyou for following my journey. I hope I can provide comfort & inspiration as you watch my journey to my dreams in real time ❤️ xxx